What You Were

It's as if you mean to say that it all meant nothing.
It's as if you wanted nothing.
I didn't realize you lusted what we had both laughed off.
Forgive me for assuming you stood out from all the worst.

I can't keep my head straight. Everything has flipped completely around and nothing makes any sense anymore. You fucking lied.

Smiling and sitting there, holding that knife in my gut.
Don't stop for me, I would rather be dead.
Forget it, just forget it, don't let me interrupt you.
When my chest caves and I shatter I hope that you feel it, too.
You've shown us all exactly what you're worth and how you feel, all the gestures and your humanity just fall right through the floor.
You're dead to me and everybody else and I hope your loved ones haven't mourned as much as me.

Do you really think that I would just forget?
Do you really think I am that oblivious?
I never want to see you again.